A reminder

Even though lately I’ve been experiencing a desire for more connection, to participate in a bit more conversation, and what’s it like to be lonely; and even though I get the sense that I do ‘fit in’ with the team, that I may actually be liked by my co-workers, and I’m no longer the quietest one in the room…  

My core self still…

… gets anxious about team away days and seeks to avoid social occasions with colleagues

… stiffens when the conversation goes from work to ‘so, doing anything nice this weekend?’

… cringes when I recall the tiny tidbits I have dared to reveal about myself

… ignores people because I just don’t feel like talking, ‘we’ve talked too much already this week, why don’t you just leave me alone?’

… prefers to spend Saturday evenings by herself

… is a shy socially anxious introverted weirdo loner woman, no matter how well I seem to be able to hide it.